GS2: Starfleet Database: Personal files: ( "A Collection of Letters to be opened if I don't make it Home" )

From: Kim (kimtoussaint_at_yahoo.com)
Date: Wed Feb 27 2008 - 20:40:48 PST


"A Collection of Letters to be opened if I don't make it Home"  
   
   
  ( Continued from my own  "Lightening Strikes, Thunder Crashes, Rain falls"  ) 
   
   
   
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  Location: Starfleet Database
Scene: File addressed to Wangel Erek 
  from Commander Daisy Byrne Davidson, MD
Time index: Recorded before she left for ANDARA
  Stardate: 2.80227.2038
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Daisy smiled broadly and sipped at  a cup of coffee.  She was in her quarters 
  on GATEWAY.  This had obviously been recorded before she left. 
   
  
{{ "Erek,  if you're looking at this message...." }} she paused and chuckled.  
  {{"but,  I hope you aren't...  then something has happened and I didn't 
make it back from this mission. "  }}
   
  
She paused and let out this patient sigh.   Then, she laughed. {{ "Of course, you'll 
probably never see this but if, God forbid, you do.....then remember I'll always love 
you and our little girl.    You've been a dear friend and I'm so glad Erika has you 
to be her Dad.   I know she'll have a wonderful childhood and she'll grow up to be
an incredible woman because she has you.  "   }} 
   
  
An awkward little chuckle escaped her lips and she added,  {{ "But what would 
a chat with me be without my selfishly asking you to do even *more* for me,
   huh?"  }} 
   
  
She laughed warmly, adding, {{ "I can see that vein on your forehead starting to 
bulge already and I can hear the groan in your voice because you know what I'm 
going to say. " }} Shaking her head,  she continued. {{ "You always do.  And, yes.... 
I mean for you to take care of Gavi and LJ."  }}
  
 
  Daisy wringed her hands awkwardly and gave him an almost apologetic little
grin. {{ "I know it's a lot to ask but you have the school and I know my boys would
have the best chance of staying together if they stay with you.  Rachel adores 
Gavi,  I know.  And, Gavi loves his Grandma.  He should visit her lots in Israel,  
but don't let her take him away from LJ, ok?  Those boys have bonded and they 
need each other."   }}
  
 
  Taking another sip of her coffee, she gave him a little snigger. 
  {{ "And you've been single too long, Erek.  Don't you roll your eyes at me,
   either.  You know I'm right.  You're a wonderful father but you've been alone
   for too long.  That's the last thing I'm going to ask you to do for me.  Take 
  care of my children and find yourself  someone to love - because I want you 
  to be happy."   }}
  
 
  She choked up a little bit.  Her eyes glistened.  Then, she smiled. 
  {{  "Now,  for the hard part.  I gotta record letters to the kids."   }}
  
She blew him a kiss and then gave him a little wave.  
  
{{ "Bye, Erek." }}
  
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Location: Starfleet Database
Scene:  File addressed to Jaxsper "LJ" Lawrence in care of Wangel Erek  
CC: Jaxsper Lawrence
Time index:  Recorded before she left for ANDARA 
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{{"Hey, LJ....Don't be scared, baby.    I told you I'll always take care of you 
  and I have."  }} Daisy smiled sweetly.    Then, she rubbed the back of her neck 
  and paced back and forth while doing a mental inventory of what she wanted
  to say. 
   
   
  {{ "I don't like recording these messages, these  'What if' messages incase 
  something bad happens.   I want to believe that I'll get back to you when I 
  plan,  but we both know that sometimes life throws you a curve ball, don't 
  we?"}}
  
 
  She sighed awkwardly and continued.   {{ "And I don't know where I am 
  right now if you  are seeing this message.  What I *DO* know is that, as long
   as I have a breath of life in me,  I will be doing whatever it takes to make sure
   that I come back to you, Erika and Gavi.  "  }} 
   
   
  She gave him a little grin.  {{"Could be you're gonna have to be brave and 
patient.  Could be you're gonna have to have some faith in me.  Try to do
   that, please."  }}
   
  
Daisy wagged her finger in a motherly fashion, {{ "And please be good.  
  Be the good boy I know is in there, the boy I love, ok?  You are *MY* boy.  
  You are *MY* son.    And, if I'm alive, then I'm working to find my way back 
  to you.  And, if I'm not...then I'm already there.  I'm already with you and,
   should you do anything crazy, you'll feel the ghost of Daisy-zilla kicking 
  your scrawny ass. "  }}
   
  
She laughed and gave him a broad, warm smile. {{ "But, let's not think like 
  that.  Let's both have a little faith in me and go with the notion that I'm alive 
  and working to come back to you, son.  I love you."   }}
   
  
{{"Oh, and big Jax?  I'm sure you're watching this.  " }} Daisy smirked. 
{{" Thank you for LJ.   You gave me a great kid.  But....no, not even *THAT* gets 
you a last peek at my Ta Ta's" }}
  
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  Location: Starfleet Database
Scene:  File addressed to Gavirosh Davidson in care of Wangel Erek  
CC: Rachel Davidson, Israel, Earth
Time index:  recorded before she left for ANDARA 
  
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  {{"Hey, Gavi....."  Daisy smiled.   "Don't be scared, baby.  If you're seeing
   this thensomething happened and I wasn't able to come home right now.  I
   know you have to be thinking about your Daddy and I'm *SO* sorry that this
   has happened to me, too."   }}
   
  
{{"I still have faith in your Dad."  }} Daisy assured him flatly.  {{ "I still believe 
  he will find his way back to us someday and I need you to have faith in me, 
  too."  }}
   
  
She sipped her coffee and then smiled at him.  {{"Remember I love you, baby.  
I loved you before you were mine.  I loved you when your Dad brought you to 
Bajor and you stepped out of that shuttle.  Do you remember how tiny you were 
all those years ago? "}}  Daisy laughed warmly. 
   
  
{{"You had never seen sunshine before.  You'd never felt grass between your 
toes.   All you'd ever known was the Valla Royale station.  I'll never forget
   walking across Wangel Erek's yard and seeing you tiptoe out on the grass, 
  seeing it for the first time.  The look on your face as you looked up and saw
   clouds..." }} she shook her  head, still smiling. {{  "Loving you, adopting you, 
  has been one such a blessing for me.  You have no idea how much I've
   learned from you, Gavi....about not  taking things for granted.  "  }}
   
  
Daisy looked a little tired   She continued in a gentle voice. {{ "I'll always 
  be with you, Gavi.    In the meantime,  I know that Wangel Erek and your 
  Grandma will take very good care of you.   Be strong for Erika and LJ.  
  They're going to need you. "  }}
  
With that said,  she blew him a kiss and gave him a little wave. 
  
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Location: Starfleet Database
Scene:  File addressed to Erika Wangel Byrne  care of Wangel Erek  
Time index: Recorded before she left for ANDARA 
  
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{{"Hey, Princess...." }}  Daisy spoke gently.  
   
  
{{ "How's my little superstar, huh?  I love you, baby.   I know you might be 
scared right now.  If you're watching this, then something has happened to keep 
me from coming home to you.   I know you, though.  You're my brave, stubborn
and strong little girl.   Even before you were born, before you could speak, you 
were finding ways to argue with me and coming up with challenges to keep 
me on my toes.  " }}  Daisy laughed and shook her head.   
   
  
Then, she added.{{  "I just need you to remember something for me.  Can you 
do that, baby?  Can you remember  - can you always remember?  Don't ever 
forget that I love you and your Daddy.  Before you guys came along,  I was
alone and my life was pretty empty.  You saved me, my baby girl.  "  }}
   
  
Daisy choked up a bit as she added, {{ "  Being your Mom gave me the courage
 to try and be a Mom to Gavi and then to LJ, too.    So - you keep an eye on
   those boys for me.  Make sure they eat their vegetables and make sure they
   listen to your Daddy. "  }}
   
  
Daisy blew a little kiss.   Then, she gave her daughter another smile. 
   
   
  {{ "I love you." }}
  
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Location: Starfleet Database
Scene:  File addressed to Captain Benjamin Kenta, USS PATRIOT
Time index:  Recorded before she left for ANDARA 
  
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  {{ "Hi, Ben....You scared me the last time I saw you."  }} Daisy's voice cracked 
  slightly.    Still,  she regained her composure and managed a weak smile.   
   
   
  {{ "Still, getting ready  to go on a mission and doing all those 'just incase' 
  messages,   I couldn't resist recording something for you."  }}
   
  
She looked good, wearing simple comfortable clothes and sitting on her 
  bed in her quarters on GATEWAY.  There was a moment of awkward silence
   before she continued with a chuckle. 
   
   
  {{"You really piss me off sometimes, you know that?   We've been doing this 
  dance for years.  We get together,  we fall apart, we get together,  we fall 
  apart.    Sometimes, I hate it.   Sometimes I even hate you....for being so 
  hard to get out of my system.  And, sometimes, I hate myself for having 
  been stupid enough to let you get away.  "  }}
   
  
Daisy smoothed back her hair from her face and sighed patiently,
  {{ "Anyway....you seemed mad at me the last time I saw you.  I don't know 
  why.    And, if you're getting this message because something has 
  happened to me,  the "why" doesn't matter.  What matters is that you 
  know what was true then is still true today.  Where ever I am, whatever 
  has happened,  I still love you."   }} She grinned weakly. 
  {{ "I always will."  }}
   
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  Location: Starfleet Database
Scene: File addressed to Bret Maverick, USS PATRIOT
Time index: Recorded before she left for ANDARA 
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{{"Hey, Mav..." }}  Daisy sighed.   Then, she gave him a smile.  
  {{"Thanks for being a fantastic pain in my ass."   }}
   
  
Then, she laughed. {{ "I'm kidding.  You know I adore you."   }}
   
  
Mav wasn't one to be all mushy with.  She cracked a few jokes about the 
  times they'd shared.  Then, she asked him to check on LJ now and then
  and see if Wangel Erek neededsome help and added the comment,  
  {{"Oh, and please....whatever you hear about me,  whatever led to you 
  getting this message,  don't do anything stupid, ok? "  }}   
  
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Location: STARFLEET DATABASE
Scene: file addressed to Dr. Aerdan Jos, USS STONEHENGE
Time index:  Recorded before Daisy left for ANDARA 
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{{"Hi, Aerdan..." }} Daisy began.  Her voice sounded tired.  She'd been
   recording a lot of messages.   
   
  
{{"You saved my life once,  back in Akeerue City.   We were on the 
  CAIRON homeworld.  Do you remember that? "  }}
   
   
  She smiled sweetly.  {{ "I'm recording my messages before I leave on what
   I know could  be a dangerous mission and I'm leaving a message for you.
    If something happens to me and I don't make it back,  if I'm either missing 
  or dead, you should get this message. " }}
   
  
The tired woman paused to take a deep breath, followed by a sip of
   coffee.    Then, she continued.  {{ Because you saved my life once.  I'm 
  going to give you some advice that will probably save your's."  }}
   
  
Daisy smirked, remembering Aerdan's fluffy white hair and always active
   antennae.  She could imagine those little appendages nervously standing 
  at attention and then whithering in horror over Daisy's words - but she was 
  determined to say them anyway. 
   
  
{{"Get a divorce, you idiot.  Get off your ass, come to GATEWAY  and
   marry Kate already.  Life is too short.   You love her.  She loves you.  
  Time to 'man up' and do something about it.  Do it for Ishe's sake.  I 
  know your daughter wants you to be happy...and so do I. " }}
  
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  Location: STARFLEET DATABASE
Scene: file addressed to Dr. Cade Foster, USS STONEHENGE
Time index:  Recorded before Daisy left for ANDARA 
  
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{{"Hey, you...."}}  Daisy grinned. {{ "I've missed you."    }}
   
   
  Her expression sort of darkened and then she admitted.  
   
   
  {{ "I'm leaving on what could be a dangerous mission in the morning 
  and I'm recording a bunch of 'just incase' messages.   You're supposed
to record messages for your loved ones and - however you feel about
   the way I ended up in command of GATEWAY - when I sat down to
   make a list of my 'loved ones'.....that list included you."  }}
   
  
After a pause, Daisy continued. {{ "I guess that means this message
   has both good news and bad news." }} She looked at him apologetically.  
  {{"If you're getting this, then I didn't make it back.  That's the bad news. 
    I know how much you love being "right",  though...."  }}
  Daisy smirked.  
   
  
Then, she coughed slightly, gave him a warmer smile, and continued. 
{{ "So, if I was going to say one last thing or give you one last 'gift',  it
   would be to let you know that you were right all along.   I know I denied it.  
   I know I swore that all we'd ever be was 'friends with benefits'.....but the
   truth is I do love you, Cade.   And, I'm sorry I never had the courage to
   say it to your face. "  }}
   
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  Location: Starfleet Database
Scene: File addressed to Peter and Matthew Aspinall
Time index: Recorded before Daisy left for ANDARA
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  Her voice choked a bit. {{ "Ok, Peter....stop crying."    }}
   
   
  Then, she laughed weakly, {{ "If something has happened to me 
  and you've gotten this message, I'm sure you're blubbering all
   over that handsome  husband of your's.  Now, stop it."  }}
   she chided him gently.   
   
   
  {{ "My kids are going to need their crazy gay Uncles, ok? So, be strong 
  for them.   Remember me to Jackie, Boone and Benham.    Give my love 
  to Maddie and her family the next time you see her.  Try not 
to let Izzy and Phia drive you bonkers with their antics....and always 
remember that I adore you both." }}
   
   
  That being said,  Daisy blew them both a kiss and waved,  
   
   
  {{  "Bye" }} 
   
  
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  NRPG:  
   
  Daisy would have left messages behind to be opened if she didn't make it back because she 
  knew going to ANDARA was risky.   
   


Kim Toussaint AKA  Commander Daisy Byrne Davidson, M.D. 
Commanding officer of GATEWAY STATION
       
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